September 11, 2016


“We take delight in things; we take delight in being loosed from things. Between these two delights, we must dance our lives.

—Philip Harnden, Journeys of Simplicity


My wife, Trish, and I have owned a camp in the Rangeley Lakes Region of western Maine for nearly thirty years. It is land that has not changed much. A time traveler from the late 1800s might find that the lakes, streams, and ponds there have remained about the same. The fish are still here. On average they are not as large as they once were, but a sixteen-inch native brook trout is not uncommon. Sometime in the late 1800s landlocked salmon were introduced and now also swim wild through the region.

When we first arrived, I spent all of my time casting large streamers and weighted nymphs in a manic search for ever-larger fish. Such fishing requires time on the water soon after the spring thaw, which in western Maine does not come until mid May. This is when the smelt, the region’s principal bait fish, leave the lakes to make their spawning run up the rivers — with brook trout and salmon following close behind. In the latter days of September, if the rains come in time, the trout and salmon once again swim upriver on their own spawning runs, providing the fly fisher a second opportunity to take a fish measured in pounds rather than inches. These are the times when most anglers are on the water.

But there is another type of fishing to be had here, one that is productive between May and September. It requires the fly fisher to heed the words of the legendary American naturalist, John Muir, who wrote, “Only by going alone in silence, without baggage, can one truly get into the heart of the wilderness.” In doing so, I discovered the many tannin-stained brooks that slip across the Canadian border, streams that bend and twist through balsam and spruce for mile after mile, some of them headwaters of those larger rivers where the majority of anglers continue their search for trophy fish. On these hidden streams I can cast to brook without ever coming upon another angler. The trout here are diminutive compared to the fish in the big rivers. A few no larger than my pinkie, the largest fits snuggly in a palm. In these narrow ribbons of running water under the shadow of this vast conifer forest, I came to truly appreciate what Thoreau described as “…these jewels…these bright fluviatile flowers, made beautiful, the Lord only knows why, to swim there!”

I enjoy reading almost as much as fishing with flies. In my early years I read Hemingway and Steinbeck, Harrison and McGuane. Along the way, the fly-fishing poet, Richard Brautigan, brought tears to my eyes while the rabid environmentalist, Edward Abbey, forced me to raise my fists. In my 1990 edition of Gary Snyder’s thought-provoking book, Practice of the Wild, the poet-turned-Buddhist explains:

“The wild requires that we learn the terrain, nod to all the plants and animals and birds, ford the streams and cross the ridges, and tell a good story when we get back home.”

I suppose it was inevitable that I would gravitate toward tenkara, a method of fishing that has extended this journey toward simplicity to my days on the water. Like a haiku by Japan’s seventeenth-century Zen poet, Matsuo Basho, tenkara strips away all but the bare essentials, freeing the mind to be in the moment and perhaps even stop time, as a six-inch brook trout slips from my moist fingers back into the cool current of some sunlit stream.

I now seek out those waters too small to gather serious attention from other anglers; those secret places, where trout live out their lives in the lee of boulders, under the shadows of spruce, pine, balsam, and birch, rarely seeing the splash of an artificial fly. No longer do I feel compelled to wing heavy nymphs past my ear, or make sixty-foot casts until my shoulder aches. I can leave my fly-box-laden vest at the cabin as well as my reel. Freed to boulder hop with ease, an activity that allows my middle-aged body to once again feel young, and carrying a wisp of a rod, I can gently dap my dry fly or work a wet fly just under the surface.

With less distraction, this uncomplicated method of fishing allows me to enjoy the creatures found along the edges of running water —the colorful flash of a tiny warbler or the song of the secretive thrush. I’ll catch myself smiling at the splash of a frog or staring into the eyes of a bashful toad. Along the way, I’ve seen otters, mink and beaver and even the occasional deer, black bear, and moose that have lumbered down out of the forest.

Our time in western Maine remains an escape from the madding pace of modern life while tenkara has made it possible for me to follow the road less traveled along a stream with brook trout, however small, willing to play tag with a bit of feather and fur.



August 21, 2016


There are ghosts beside the rills and runs splashing down the sides of these slopes thick with spruce and balsam. They linger along the tannin-stained pools of rivers that meander through the shadows of this conifer forest. I’ve heard their rustlings in the still of a summer evening while walking barefoot along a deserted cove, caught movement at the edge of a fog-soaked pond as I cast my flies at dawn.

It’s been nearly thirty years since my wife and I drove down the logging road along the shoreline of the most western of the chain of lakes that comprises the Rangeley Lakes Region of western Maine, turning into our camp for the first time, our infant daughter nestled beside our black Labrador. Since then, we’ve come to appreciate the rich sporting tradition of this part of the state that has earned its nickname as The Land of Fishing Legends.

Before purchasing our cabin, Trish and I stayed at Bosebuck Mountain Camps, one of a number of traditional sporting lodges found within a seemingly endless forest that stretches south past Quebec’s Boundary Mountains and north from the White Mountains of New Hampshire. Birch, poplar, oak, and maple combine with pine, spruce, and balsam to shelter tiny streams that slip across the Canadian border expanding into larger rivers that connect vast bodies of water. Some retain their Abenaki names — such as Umbagog, Aziscohos, Cupsuptic, and the largest of them all, Mooselookmeguntic Lake. Others — Upper and Lower Richardson and Rangeley — are known by their English names.

Like many lodges in the region, Bosebuck was built in the early 1900s and caters to those men and women traveling here to fish pristine waters, hunt abundant game, or simply to tramp through the unspoiled woodland.

My wife and I were newly married that first time we made the nine-and-a-half hour trek from our home in New Jersey to the lodge that at that time was owned by Tom Rideout, a master Maine guide, well known throughout the region. Unaware that we would soon own a cabin along the opposite shoreline, Trish and I pulled in beside the rough-hewn boards of the camp’s main building, the windshield of our first-generation Isuzu Trooper coated with pollen, its hood with dust from the forty-five minute drive up the logging road that swings around the western edge of Aziscohos Lake.

A fly fisherman, I was in search of trophy brook trout, a fish native to Maine, and landlocked salmon, those fish that leap through the surface to dance on their tails upon feeling the prick of a hook.

Smelt, the baitfish that replaced blueback trout as the principal food source, keep the brookies and salmon fat and happy. Sixteen-inch fish are not uncommon while trout as big as an angler can imagine are still found in deep pools with iconic names like Little Boy Falls, Cleveland Eddy, Warden’s Pool, Stump Pool, Pond-In-The-River, and the waters below Middle and Upper Dam.

We purchased our cabin in 1987, then until now paddling over the region’s ponds, motoring across its lakes, and wading the rivers and streams. Although hiking well-marked trails has its benefits, we more often choose to bushwhack through the forest just to see what we can see.

This land of shadowy swamps and sparkling lakes, thunderstorms and rainbows, deadfalls and painted trilliums is frequented by sudden spates and fierce squalls, the salmon in its big lakes preferring those blustery days when wind-swept waves break over a boat’s bow. Although his scenes depict the Adirondack Mountains, Winslow Homer’s art comes closest to capturing western Maine’s primitive beauty as do the watercolors of the contemporary artist John Swan, whose family has owned a camp on Big Kennebago Lake for three generations.


Although a hard land, western Maine holds the promise of trophy fish from May through September in two of its tailwater fisheries. Beware, however, for these rivers are to be taken seriously. Beginning at its outlet below Middle Dam to its confluence with Umbagog Lake, the Rapid is a brawling take-no-prisoners affair, falling 120 feet in only three miles. To its west is a short mile-and-a-half stretch of the Magalloway River. To paraphrase a recent movie title, this section of the Magalloway is “no river for old men,” as it sweeps out from below the Aziscohos dam and forms rapids that can humble the most experienced angler.

Unlike the unbridled current of these bruising waters, the upper portion of the Magalloway River, as well as the Cupsuptic and Kennebago Rivers meander through hummock-covered marshes and are best fished at the beginning or end of the season when the water temperatures are cooler. Then there are the smaller streams and brooklets, many without names, where behind each boulder and under every plunge pool there is a brook trout, some as small as a finger, each as bright as a lupine and as brash as a pup. While casting flies to these unrefined fish you can feel the presence of those who once waded the same water, treaded the same trails. Fossils found when Aziscohos Lake was drained for repairs on its dam confirm that over 10,000 years ago ancestors of the Abenaki tribes hunted Caribou here. In the 1870s, John Danforth, a young trapper, was one of the first white men to explore the wild country through which the upper section of the Magalloway River flows.

Others made their mark catering to those wishing to spend time under the sweeping branches of spruce and pine. The preeminent guide of his time, Wallace Stevens worked out of his camp located below Upper Dam. In 1920, his wife won second prize in a fishing contest after catching a brook trout in excess of six pounds with a streamer of her own making. An article published in Field and Stream described the event and propelled Carrie Stevens and her streamers to national prominence. Her many patterns continue to be used today to catch fish measured in pounds rather than inches.

Well-known decoy carver, and good friend of Wallace and Carrie, Charles “Shang” Wheeler spent the fishing season at Upper Dam where he wrote The Ode of White Nose Pete, a poem about a legendary brook trout that some say continues to break leaders and steal flies.

Set in the 1930s, Louise Dickinson Rich’s now classic book, We Took To The Woods, depicts her life with husband Ralph, along the rugged and isolated Rapid River. Today you can spend a long weekend at the “Winter House,” the one-room cabin that Louise insisted Ralph build beside their rambling summer residence known as Forest Lodge, where, with their son, Rufus and dog, Kyak, they remained warm from first snow until ice-out.


Yes, there are ghosts in these hills surrounding the lakes, rivers, and streams of this Land of Fishing Legends. While paddling up the Little Magalloway River, scan the rocky outcropping known as Wheeler’s Dam and you might glimpse a line of Palaeo-American hunters carrying their stone-pointed spears. Sit with me for a while beside this campfire and you might see the shadow of young Johnny Danforth hiking up the side of Big Buck Mountain with a rifle slung over his shoulder, a brace of rabbits clasped in his hand. Tomorrow we can drive down the logging road to Upper Dam, where you can cast a streamer, but be on your guard, lest White Nose Pete snatch another fly, his dorsal fin breaching the surface as he leaves your line limp.

Oh, and if, like Trish and me, you decide to spend the night at Louise and Ralph’s Winter House, don’t be concerned if you hear scratching at the cabin door. It’s only Kyak looking for a handout.

(This essay first appeared in slightly different form in Maine Boats Homes and Harbors magazine and again in MidCurrent, an Online Fly Fishing Magazine.)

Like Stars In The Midnight Sky

July 8, 2016

The fishing in western Maine can be quite good in August, if you can find where the trout are hiding. This requires time and patience. By keeping your ears open and mouth shut, you might catch some gossip while waiting on line at the general store, hear a bit of loose talk between locals while pumping gas, or a sport boasting over dinner at the sporting lodge. Of course, nothing beats putting time in on the water, which is what I’m doing on this particular afternoon during the last week of the month.

With sleeves rolled to the elbows, my lightweight shirt damp with perspiration, I steer the Grumman, our sixteen-foot, aluminum canoe, along the eastern edge of the lake. Turning toward an island, I cut back on the four-horse-power outboard fastened to the craft’s square stern while checking out a nest built high up in a spruce tree. Earlier this season a state biologist had banded two eagle chicks. Although there is no movement in the massive labyrinth of branches, a few yards away, in another spruce, a mature eagle, its white head offset against a dark blue sky, glares down at me from a cold, yellow eye.

Crossing over to the western side of the lake, I motor northward. Evergreens spread down from each bank. The smell of balsam is strong. A moose grazing along the shoreline raises her head while I watch thunderheads build over the hills that rise in the distance.

As the lake gradually narrows, marsh grass that remained submerged during most of the spring has formed a wide plateau extending outward from along the western shoreline. In August, the forest palette is comprised of varying shades of green, the marsh grass lighter, more vibrant than the hills with their dark green conifers and lighter green hardwoods.

A loon dives a few yards off my bow. Not far away the bird’s mate follows. The same biologist who tags the eagles also monitors the lake’s loon population. He once explained that few loon eggs survive predation, the hatchlings that do, breaking free of their purplish-gray eggshells each year around the first week of July.

I follow the lake around a rocky peninsula that was once dammed to raise the water level as part of extensive log drives, which in years gone by used the waterways to float timber from smaller streams to lakes and from the lakes down wider rivers to still larger lakes until reaching the paper mills built along the banks of the Androscoggin River across the border in New Hampshire.

The water here is shallow, vegetation just under the surface prone to strangle an outboard’s propeller, causing an engine to overheat. Not far beyond are a series of submerged boulders. Although of no concern in the spring, this time of year I must be careful to navigate around both obstacles. A cormorant stands atop one of the boulders, the bird’s wings extending outward like a pudgy vampire about to take flight.

As the clouds draw closer, the surface of the lake grows still. After motoring around the outstretched arm of land, I enter a large cove that remains shallow forcing me to proceed with caution. The conifer forest drops down along the eastern shoreline while great expanses of marsh grass continue to advance from the west. After reaching the far side of the cove, I cut the engine and drift into a narrow channel formed between the marsh and a small island. I can see that the gut is deeper than the water in the cove.

The sun slips in and out of the clouds that now hang over the marsh and threaten to sweep over the lake. I hear a little stream that enters the other side of the narrow channel. Slipping out of the forest, its current forms a set of shallow riffles that glide over a bed of cobble and into the deep trough through which I’d pass.

Dragging the boat onto a shoal, I gather my gear. An osprey rides a thermal current over the cove while snipes spiral upward then dive toward the marsh plateau. The air whistling through their wings makes an eerie sound. In the distance a logging truck rumbles over the wooden bridge that traverses the stream. Although unable to see the vehicle, I can hear it wind along the eastern shoreline, the sound of the rig fading into the forest.

After connecting the two pieces of my cane rod, I knot a Gold-ribbed Hare’s Ear to the end of the line and wade back toward the channel. The stream’s cobble gives way to the lake bottom, a mixture of grit, mud and sand pluming upward as I shuffle into deeper water. I cast toward the edge of the channel, where the river’s colder, clearer current mingles with the warmer, tannin-stained water of the cove.

A meager breeze sweeps out of the southwest momentarily ruffling the lake’s surface. Along the sod bank, strands of grass sway as if in anticipation of the coming storm. The Hare’s Ear sinks a few inches, a brook trout striking as soon as I impart movement to the wet fly.

The little fish takes my breath away, its scarlet fins etched in white and black, its belly golden. Sprinkled along the flanks are red-in-blue dots that combine with yellow spots, the gills the shade of blood. All in stark contrast to the somber beauty of the vast forest surrounding this dark water that reminds me of a moody lover.

The clouds that rolled in over the lake block the sun. The trout at the entrance of the gut remain small, no more than six or seven inches long, but when I extend my cast a nine-inch fish, and then one that measures ten inches strike the fly.

I stare out over the great expanse of wavering grass, can almost feel the gray clouds pressing down, the air heavy, the scent of balsam mingling with that of the lake, the grass, and the grit and mud kicked up by my wading boots. The distant hills are lost under a shroud of falling rain that has yet to descend upon the water. I untie my neckerchief, submerge it under the surface, and after removing my cap, wring out the water over my head, wiping the damp cloth across my face before tying it back around my neck.

After releasing a trout longer than the last, I cast my fly in search of a larger fish, a brook trout measured in pounds rather than inches, perhaps a refugee from a time when Herb Welch and Wallace Stevens worked this water. Although few in number, these piscine apparitions haunt my dreams.

When the strike comes it takes me by surprise, the trout running, my hand trembling when the rod arcs. Then, with the reel screaming, the line goes suddenly limp.

I look up at the gray shroud. The cove is silent, the air still. I want to shout or perhaps cry. Instead, I reel in and after checking the fly, cast once more into the dark water of the deep trough, but the moment has passed, the ghost fish gone. After another ten minutes I slog back to the boat, the first raindrops falling upon my shoulders. Beyond the narrow channel, across the vast expanse of the cove, each drop is like the rise of a trout, as many trout as stars in a midnight sky.

This essay first appeared in the June edition of Midcurrent, an online fly-fishing magazine.

Author in Residence

May 1, 2016

I’m honored to be Author in Residence  during the latter part of June at the Ames Free Library located in North Easton, Massachusetts. If nearby, drop by on June 18th. Topics of discussion will be books, brook trout and anything in between!

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Ain’t Getting Any Younger

March 27, 2016

I’ve been writing a column for Skylands Magazine for many years. Much like this blog it focuses on the seasons. This spring The publisher decided to use one of Trish’s photos for the cover. He advised, “No matter what I did with photoshop I couldn’t make the guy look any younger.”

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March 7, 2016

Trish and I will be attending the western Maine Fly Fishing Expo to be held on March 19th 9 – 4 in Bethel, Maine located across the street from the Bethel Inn. I’ll be providing a program on the Rangeley Lakes Region while Selene Dumaine will be talking about tying Carrie Stevens streamers and Bill Pierce will be discussing the history of this region which has such a rich sporting tradition. This is our last show of the year, so stop by, chat, and maybe purchase a book. We hope to see you there.
Here is a link providing more information:http://www.mollyockettu.org

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February 28, 2016

Blue jays swoop down around our bird feeders, their raucous cries preceding them while robins tend to sweep into the branches of our dogwood trees, from there to descend upon the lawn in search of earthworms. The individual members of these flocks pay little attention to each other while crows act like a family, well, perhaps more like a gang, in which each member is dependent upon the other to fulfill its role within the group.

As far back as the fifteenth century a group of crows was referred to as a murder. Some say it is because they could be found on the battlefield scavenging the bodies of the dead while others maintain that they were harbingers of death.

One such murder of crows inhabits a tract of hardwood trees that extends more than one hundred acres beyond our eight-or-so-acre woodlot, which lies adjacent to the pond separating this extensive woodland from another four acres of fields and gardens that surround the house where Trish and I have lived for nearly thirty years.

I’m told that crows mate for life. I don’t know if this is true, but on more than one occasion, I’ve watched the head of this particular clan feed his better half, the two standing side by side on a limb of a maple or oak tree. There are seven birds in this extended family, although there are times when only two, three or four show up.

When on the ground, they waddle with authority, and always with purpose. They enjoy tossing leaves and other debris, curious to discover what may lie underneath. The other morning I watched two of them do just that while patrolling the earthen dam behind our pond. Over and over again, the two birds inspected every leaf they came upon, tossing each aside before stalking toward the next.

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They tend to fly into our yard sometime after dawn. We find them under the bird feeders and suet cages, pecking at the seed or bits of suet dropped from above, taking flight when they sense us looking out at them from our bedroom window. For crows do not suffer people gladly. Invariably, one or two of their members will act as sentries standing guard while perched in a nearby tree ready to sound the alarm should it become necessary.

Most afternoons, crows return soon after we replenish the feeders. They eat whole corn kernels with long teeth, preferring cracked corn, although their favorite food is the sunflower hearts that songbirds drop from the feeders and the chunks of suet pecked out by woodpeckers. In addition to these staples, Trish and I collect stale bread, putting it out on the dam after it’s hardened. More than once I’ve found bread hidden under rocks and other debris throughout the four corners of our property. I always assumed this to be the work of squirrels, until spying a crow in the far corner of Trish’s garden scratching among the leaves. Inspecting the site, I discovered a piece of bread. Examining the ground further, I found two other pieces cached under garden debris.

Although known to rob nests of eggs and even nestlings, songbirds do not appear to mind them. Gray squirrels also ignore these members of family Corvidae, although I’ve seen them turn tail when a crow advanced with its wings spread open. I once saw a deer back down in the same way. But for the most part crows seem to get along with the rest of the creatures that inhabit our property with the exception of snakes and hawks.

Their cries are quite varied, ranging from croaks and whines to the harsh signal that alert any crow within in hearing distance that one of their number may be in danger. A few years back, these cries rose to a fever pitch, with crows descending upon a cedar tree beside the lean-to where I store my stove wood. Crows flew around the tree while others stood in a nearby dogwood, their bodies bobbing up and down as they screamed the alarm. At first I was unable to see what was causing so much distress, but staring upward I discovered a six-foot-long black snake entwined in the arborvitae’s branches. Crows truly mistrust humans, and perhaps with good reason, as we have been known to shoot them out of the sky. But whatever the reason, they have little use for us, and on that afternoon, they retreated at my approach, eventually flying off, allowing the black snake to wind its way down the tree, where it slithered under a boulder.


A crow’s favorite pastime is to harass hawks. On more than one occasion, I’ve watched them mob a hawk to distraction. Driving to the stream one day, I stopped to watch a number of crows that had encircled a red-tailed hawk in a field alongside a country road. Outnumbered by its opponents, the raptor stood like a samurai, shifting its gaze from one antagonist to the other, waiting for the right moment to strike. But the moment never came, the hawk flying off with the crows following, pecking at the larger bird’s tail and wings. I watched for sometime as the bird of prey spiraled higher and higher, the crows taking turns to harass it. At no time did the hawk appear to be in danger, and eventually its tormentors tired of the game, the larger bird flying toward a set of hills and out of sight.

This morning, while stacking next winter’s wood in the lean-to I noticed that the songbirds had abandoned the feeders, their chatter suddenly muted. Earlier, I heard the high-pitched screams of a hawk, but it had glided over the woodland beyond our property. Now, as a sudden quiet fell over our yard, I slid a piece of white oak into the growing wall of cordwood and walked out into the open to discover a red-shouldered hawk standing in the crook of a tree a few feet away from the feeders. As it stared down at me with a cold amber eye, a crow cried from the other side of our house. A moment later a second bird joined in, and within seconds three crows were flying around the hawk. It didn’t take long for the entire mob to arrive, screaming their displeasure while flying round and round until the raptor had enough, flying off with the crows in hot pursuit, taking turns pecking and nipping at the larger bird’s wings and tail, their cries growing fainter as the hawk spiraled higher and higher.

While I began once again stacking wood, songbirds resumed their chatter — gold finches, titmice and juncos gathering around the feeders, a chipmunk stuffing its cheeks with seed before scampering toward the stone foundation of the lean-to.


December 7, 2015



The Black sat back on his haunches when the man raised his hand palm up beside the side door. As he had become accustomed to doing, the large dog took his cue from the older dog, who sat a foot or so closer to the man. The Black’s every muscle flexed with anticipation as the man turned the knob on the door, shouldering past the older dog he had out grown since leaving his mother and siblings a little over a year ago.

Outside, the older dog abandoned the Black, trotting across the property toward the southwest corner of the electric fence to see if the neighbor’s dog, a female German Shepherd, might be around. The Black’s paws splayed open on the hard earth that was tinged with frost on this first weekend in December. He had yet to gathered the confidence to walk by the man’s side the way the older dog boldly did. Instead, he followed a step behind, as the man trudged across the dirt drive, walking beside a red pickup truck.

Each Monday morning, the Black would wait inside the house, tail wagging, his eyes watching from the window, as the man called to the older dog to jump into the vehicle’s cab, the truck sputtering to life, a wisp of smoke belching from its rear. Moments before, the man would gather three or four large plastic bags from the basement, swinging them one at a time into the pickup’s bed. The Black would race to the room in the back of the house to follow the man, who would hobble back into the basement returning with a plastic barrel full of recyclables.

A few weeks back, the man had beckoned to the Black to jump onto the seat of the truck. The Black had looked around, but his adopted brother was nowhere to be found. Still unsure, the young Labrador whined his uncertainty before advancing forward, and with a mighty leap found himself surrounded by windows on every side. Moments later, the young dog was squeezing his nose above the window that had opened magically. Now, looking up at the red machine, the Black remembered the exotic scents that had streamed past and the unexpected biscuit the gas station attendant had raised toward the window that remained partially opened.

This morning the man continued past the truck onto a narrow path between a high row of logs and a mountain of split wood. Even with the sudden drop in temperature, the sawdust and wood chips insulated the path, the Black’s paws leaving an impression as he followed the man.

The man opened the door of a shed that stood beside a lean-to, where the winter’s stove wood had been neatly stacked. The Black lowered his head, furrowing his wide brow when a chipmunk poked out from between two logs and then raced over the dog’s front paws and into the bottom of the woodpile. Before the Black could react, the man walked out of the shed, the dog following at his heels as he set out bird feeders on posts set around the house.

When he was done, the man called to the older dog, who appeared at his side.

“Good dog,” the man said as he lowered a hand to stroke the older dog’s broad shoulders. The older dog followed the man through the side door of the house while the Black hung back, his attention fixed on a chickadee that was scolding him from the branches of a rhododendron.

The Black had not yet learned the command for “Come,” which he repeatedly ignored to the great frustration of the man.

When the door closed, the Black trotted back toward the woodpile in the hope the chipmunk might come out and play, but when he would not, the dog smelled here and there before raising a leg as he’d seen the older dog do. Working his way back to the rhododendron, the Black discovered that the chickadee had flown to one of the feeders.

Bored, the young dog stared up at the bush, grabbing one of its branches between his teeth and snapping it off. By the time the man reappeared, the Black had repeated his new found surgical skill on a number of the lower branches, freezing when the man yelled, “Bad Dog!”

Backing away from the rhoda, the Black shook with fear, not at what the man would do, but at the thought that he may have displeased him. For in a young dog’s mind that is the worst sin of all.

“Sit,” called the man, his voice edged with anger.

This was a command the Black knew well and he quickly obeyed, cowering when the man approached. This time the man did not call “Come,” turning instead toward the door, the Black quickly following.

Inside the house, the Black looked up, his brown eyes pleading for recognition. Stomping into the kitchen, the man clung to his anger like a dog to his bone. The Black followed, sitting at the man’s feet, the dog’s whines, his wagging tail, those big brown eyes impossible to ignore.

The man was talking to him now. “You should know better,” he was saying, his voice drained of anger, which only made the Black whine louder, tail flail faster, eyes grow wider, until unable to control his relief, the big dog rose on his back paws, front paws sliding over the man’s shoulders, the dog’s weight bringing the man to his knees, his face slathered by the big dog’s tongue.


November 29, 2015

I don’t own a smart phone. In all these years, I never did get around to purchasing a cell phone. Now, I’m not a complete Luddite. In my opinion, TIVO is the greatest invention since man created the wheel! I also must admit, but only under extreme interrogation techniques, that I own an I-pod on which Trish has downloaded a library of music. Even so, one of the true joys of my life remains listening to the college station on the radio while splitting stove wood.

That is why on this extraordinarily warm Thanksgiving morning, I’m wearing only a t-shirt while standing in front of the chopping block, swinging my six-pound maul into an oak log. I’m facing the shed that contains tools necessary to maintain the twelve acres around the little Cape Cod house where Trish and I raised our daughter, and where we have lived for over thirty years together. It is where Buck, our first dog is buried. It is also the resting place for Magalloway and Moose, two black Labradors, each of whom accompanied us over hills, through fields and into streams for over fourteen years. It is where Winslow Homer and Finnegan are doing there their best to keep Trish and I young.

Bird feeders hang from hooks in the ceiling of the shed. On the floor plastic bins containing sunflower seed and cracked corn sit side by side. I built a small wooden table under the shed’s single window. Bottles and cans of varying heights and widths line the shelves along either side of the window. They contain a motley assortment of screws, nails, nuts, bolts and cotter pins that I have collected over the years. On the table is a toolbox. Its pine sides are blue and yellow, Cub Scout colors painted when I was a boy. Small tools, some inherited from my father, others from my mother’s father, hang from nails on the back wall. Leaning in one corner are a number of long-handled tools — a rake shovel, broom, a peavey and the maul when it is not in use. Along the adjacent wall two axes hang, one above the other, each suspended by two nails. When not splitting wood, I use the axes to make kindling.

Chainsaws squat like woodchucks on wooden crates, a one-gallon gas can sits inside one of the crates, a plastic jug of oil inside the other. One of the Stihls has a sixteen-inch bar while a twelve-inch bar is attached to the other. There was a time when my larger chainsaw had a twenty-inch bar, but at my age, logs with diameters in excess of sixteen inches are too heavy to move, even with the peavey, and much too much work to split with my lightweight maul.

To my right is the mountain of split wood that next October I’ll store in the lean-to adjacent to the shed where this year’s wood is presently stacked. To my left is a shoulder-high wall of logs waiting for the maul’s blade. The narrow path between the mountain of split wood and wall of logs leads to the shed. Its surface is cushioned by sawdust and wood chips.

Trish purchased the radio more than twenty years ago. I store it in the shed. It is impervious to cold as well as water having been left out in the rain on more than one occasion. Battered and bruised by airborne logs and falling from uncertain perches, clogged with grit and sawdust, it continues to play music programmed by the college disc jockeys specializing in different genres from blues to jazz to folk.

The I-pod wouldn’t last a day outside. Besides, I’m familiar with the music downloaded on this mysterious device. Swinging my maul, watching the mountain of split-wood grow higher, I’m always surprised at the selection of music on the radio. As the clock ticks past noon on this Thanksgiving morning, the first few bars of Arlo Guthrie’s acoustic guitar bring a smile to my face. As Woody’s son begins his tale of the Stockbridge, Massachusetts Thanksgiving-day “massacree” I lay my maul down and sit back on a log.  I remember a young and thin Arlo, a seditious smile on his lips, his hair a confusion of bushy auburn hair. Later this weekend, Trish and I will accompany her parents and our close friends, Frank and Susan, to see Arlo and his family as they perform at the New Jersey Performing Arts Center. Who would have thunk it way back then?

Could it be that fifty years have gone by since I first heard Woody’s son finger pick his way through the monologue that contains a “red VW microbus”, “Officer Obie,” “twenty-seven 8 x 10 glossy pictures with the circles and arrows and a paragraph on the back of each one,” the sergeant staring down at the eighteen year old willing to “Kill…Kill…Kill,” while the “kid” sits on “the ‘Group W’ bench” with “mother rapers … and father stabbers… and father rapers?”

For a few moments I’m young again. Cocky and full of what for, my body thin, hair black, long and unruly. I suppose you can get anything you want at Alice’s Restaurant.



November 14, 2015

I’m splitting wood in a t-shirt. It’s the second week of November and the temperature has yet to fall below fifty degrees. I wonder if winter will ever come. What begins as a few split logs will grow into a modest hill. As winter progresses the hill will evolve into a mountain to replace the stove wood stacked under the eave of the lean-to that shall be gone by March. This morning, I had collected wood from a black birch and red oak taken down by a service hired by the electric company to remove trees threatening their power lines. With the sound of the chainsaw still vibrating in my ears, I cut up two truckloads before taking out my six-ounce maul.The hardwood leaves have fallen. Even the oak tree in our front yard has lost its mantle. The deer have been grazing on acorns dropped by the white oaks on the far side of our pond. Using Leonard Lee Rue III’s method of gauging the acorn crop, I counted eight nuts under my size 10½ boot — a decent amount according to New Jersey’s foremost naturalist. (Dr. Rue estimated that if his size 11 boot covered nine acorns it was a good year while covering a dozen was an excellent crop.)

I raise the six-ounce maul and the log on the stump splits in two. I place one half back on the stump and raise the maul.

Like blue comets, earlier this morning a flock of eight bluebirds streaked across the field behind our home. They stopped to inspect the wooden houses nailed to posts along the edge of the grass, where a pair will hopefully return to build their nest in the spring.


Bringing the maul back down, the log flies into two more pieces.

Last week a black bear, one, maybe two years old, lumbered onto the earthen dam, lured there by the same acorns the deer have been eating. Our dogs seem to sense whenever a bear is near. From inside the house, they sniff the air, racing from window to window, tails erect, hair on their backs standing up. First Winslow and then Finnegan begin to growl. When their growls turn to barks, the big lug stares up at the house and then turns down the ravine on the other side of the dam, a silent shadow lost in the hundred acres behind our woodlot.

After splitting the second half of the log, I look around. The dogs are out, patrolling the acreage behind the electric fence Trish and I installed to keep the deer from devouring her plants and my vegetables. I call them, but they have rabbit scat to chew and woodchuck holes to explore. Bending forward, I feel the beginning of a cramp in my lower back, a cramp that by evening will require two Bayer aspirins to subside. Grabbing the pieces of the log that have fallen around the stump, I chuck them onto the pile.

After splitting another log into two halves, I lower the maul and sit on a stump. The sun is strong. I raise the bill of my cap and allow it to shine down onto my face. With little rain this fall, I haven’t been fishing in a number of weeks.

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With my eyes closed, I imagine it is spring. It is not difficult to do, the afternoon more like early May than the middle of November. In my mind, I cast my line. The fly I choose is an Adams. The traditional pattern floats down a current swollen from a spring spate. Its hackled wing is cocked to one side as the dry fly slips down a seam along the edge of the far bank until it is lost in a sudden boil. A brook trout streaks under the surface, but then is lost when I’m pushed off the stump. First Finnegan, the younger of our two Labs, and then Winslow Homer are on me, their tongues like two wet sloppy rags slathering me in dog drool.

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